My internal prison

So I’ve had a quiet week not written not spoken of it all.. it’s all building within the pressure compounding beneath the shell of my skin.

Court again next week.. I’ve seen some positives for people online ,with their cases moving forward.. it’s fabulous but not enough..

I have options still, which I will follow up but retracing my experiences I have had to do plan b.. if court fails to provide the protection ( through the fault of laws not working) I have to protect myself.. and I am, the only way Jenny knows ..

Had another of his acquaintances message me on Facebook this week asking if I still live at the same property .. known mutually obviously but I’ve not had anything to do with them for years.. I’ve not reported this one !! Had enough of being treated like I’m over reacting or that I’m making things up.. so the game swings of radar 🎯 this is what the authorities cannot comprehend!! What other options do you give us? This is the most dangerous area .. the grey hidden shadows.

To ensure I don’t take my anger, upset, turmoil and desperation out on some innocent being I’ve locked off no mingling, no contacts outside the house people, door shut ,mind and body thinking and focused.

How far does this have to go? There comes a point where evidence is what matters and I’ve got it all ..

Court – the process it’s sickening , we will be in that proximity again🙄. He has no right to be in my personal zone ever after what he did .. I want him to contest it and push it forward to a proper hearing in crown.. is he brave enough ? Have the police made him think he’s that untouchable?? He has manipulated a vulnerable whilst on ipp order , broken every rule he’s ever been set , why wouldn’t he think any different?

Well whatever happens next week that’s when I’ll decide if I follow the process to the info or whether to plan B on s larger scale.. I don’t want to destroy worlds but another way is telling people what happened then, who you are , what you do to vulnerable people not just women, and the callous calculating manner in which you operate.. let them decide ..

Till the case is sorted I’m limited to full disclosure and expression but after .. well..

Again I’ll state you came for me .. IM NOT DOING THIS AGAIN SO DICE IN YOUR HANDS .. roll or walk away ..