So a long morning spent waiting, listening to cases you have no choice, the solicitors sit beside you with clients discussing detail. Being inches awY you hear it all how embarrassing, we are people you know ..

Well my feeling of flatline was right. No show… not served … this time they had rang. He was rude in his reply and is now running from being forced to come to court..

WHAT DID YOU EXPECT WHEN YOU CONTACTED?? ME TO RUN TO YOU ?? YOU WANT TO BE FRIENDS? YOU WANT ME TO BRING THE KIDS MINGLE WITH THE CHILD BRIDE AND YOUR LOT ? DO YOU WANT YOUR CHILD TO SEE WHAT HIS KNOWS AS HIS SIBLINGS FRIEND TO BE ACCEPTED AS ANYTHING ELSE?

In the recall to court is the info as to why I’ve been allowed to appeal, I was not guided properly by legal, you know what’s in there, I won’t stop till I get life protection that can’t be granted here in Family court..

In front of a Jury in magistrates or crown, you and I both know , your losing….

I feel for her… you picked a kid for a reason yes PSU showed me that .. I hold no guilt anymore though that you got her, just pity, what a life eh!

Well I’ve sat thinking long enough, got some things to do as once it’s done your forced to appear .. no choice in the matter ….think the judge made that decision when reading out what you said on the 4th July to the court staff..

MANNERS MAKETH THE MAN 👨

So another restless night, I’m fed up of this shxt…

I have a flat feeling … I think he’s not been served again…

I need it to end .. the thought of facing you today, surprisingly, does not fill me with dread. I’m angry 😡, the law is protecting you. I’m at a stage where YOU WANT TO SEE ME , come on ..

Yet again your contact has had dramatic effects, you and the school have altered the direction on my life! This time for the better, my drive has returned. The evil I’ve seen in school with teachers matches yours , it got the same reaction. It’s hit me like solar energy. It has to stop!

We need people with heart to come forward and challenge those in power.. Julie Hambleton, justice for the 21 campaigner, going for the job of police crime commissioner, INSPIRED ME MORE.

I am not alone, many out there know the injustice of power, wealth and position, we are rising, we want to know what’s gone wrong! Why you protect the worst of humanity while the rest of us live in their destructive aftermath.

Well I’ve got plans moving forward..

You fail too many .. I’m going to get what I need and help .. Domestic Violence – living in the aftermath. Watch me rise, it’s time to rebuild the broken, and get our voices heard.

4 months have passed since your contact, feels like years tbh. Do you wish you hadn’t bothered ??? I bet you do.. What is it that you wanted? Have you fulfilled what you came for? Do you think we can be friends 🤣. You really are a few sandwiches short of a picnic 🧺

Well time to get ready, gotta keep normal kids to sort. My 7 year old daughter , you listening, WILL NOT KNOW THIS FILTH AS LIFE!! You damaged enough your filthy reach don’t have the same effect anymore, yes it’s unexplainable, but fear leaves you weak. Army rules, face it, find the fear then use its power to power you ..

YOU WILL NEVER BEAT ME BLOKE.. IVE SURVIVED SO MUCH MORE THAN YOU AND OVERCOME IT. See me everywhere that’s down to this , you put me out there lol the last thing you wanted,me living …

So come on ,the music plays loudly, the dance floor of court awaits us, if you do turn up, I’m far from alone and the support I have today shows you, well it shows you IM NOT PLAYING ANY MORE .. ☺️

There comes a time, when it stops hurting like you’d think… flatline I’m there now .. so All you have then is the principle and I’ll fight for that, I’ll fight for the other women and men with no voice, I’ll fight for the dead unheard by services and killed.. oh then you get justice ..

Again I will not accept your words Police.. he has to hurt me first.. he did,he raped and beat me , trauma for 7 years and till today.. he contacts , you the services should be stopping him.. YOU ALL FAILED MY FAMILY… You fail us to this very morning …

wish me luck

Well it’s been busy this situation with my rapist ex, the school issues and people around me it’s all changed my life direction.

It’s recharged my battered soul, the injustice everywhere, it’s angered me, I know anger and it drove me to change. No the anger didn’t do that, the lack of action from services has.

I have done some training, I’m not a daft person, you animals him the ex, the services, the police, mp, government the teams in place Anawim women’s aid freedom programme , your building us up to be destroyed again at least prepare these women for that .. your courses are good to a point , you need to include court process, legal knowledge for courts tell them they can appeal, tell them it’s hard, tell them we are not protected by the laws .. prepare them … THE COURT PROCESS IS DEGRADING and super emotional 😭

I’m back in court next week got my support in place, you will know. Your game is over that day…. I’ve been mingling cos of you n polices lack of action.. I’m alive again …

“Hi I’m JENNY! Do YOU want to play? ” 🤫🤣🤣😂

Well once this court is done I’ll be filing mailing and on your case you worthless excuse for a man , time for you to feel the pressure I did. Your turn for social services in your life , difference is you need watching mate I never did.

There are many ways to travel to a destination, mine, is you in a court facing me and a judge and jury, the route yes it’s paved with obstacles and blocked ways, but I’ve dreamt it , you know the only dreams I have are warnings or future .. I’ll see you there one day , let’s hope it’s not cos you hurt her or this child, she will change with child , you won’t be able to cope , your gonna be second again , her attention will be on the baby. Oh yes you will dote and try to cover it, BUT HOW LONG WILL IT LAST …

You came looking for me she was barely a month pregnant 🤰 says it all mate. Again I state there is nothing here for you except disgust … keep walking 🚶‍♀️

Till we meet again and if you ain’t been served, there will be another day cos I’m going for full disclosure 🤣🥰🤓🧐 you aren’t the only intelligent one ..

Today I got a letter from police what a joke my complaint has not been addressed at all ..

I have replied and will fulfill that content after court .. for goodness sake incompetence in my opinion has been continuous throughout my case by many professionals not just these guys..

Within an hour of that I got a questionnaire on how did we do 🤣🙄🤪

Well I answered that too , it was blunt and direct and tbh a lot more polite than it could of been, quite proud of myself .. I don’t think they will be impressed with what I think of their actions lol 😂 but right now their opinions are irrelevant they have no idea 💡 clueless .. or arrogantly ignorant …

The joke of it is they keep saying it’s historic.. yes it has been going on a long time .. but it’s ongoing with his constant contact and the evidence that proves what I’ve said all along he’s shadowed me, using a child, integrated in my family whilst on an order , you let him get close too her it was reported many times to many services .. YOU HELPED HIM GET TO THIS POINT ..

I, as the days go on can only take the view they won’t act as it shows them all up for failing.. how terrible is that eh? Disgusting is an understatement

Put through all that therapy , a court case collecting evidence, reporting all intact and what for SO HE CAN DO IT ALL AGAIN .. lol why do I laugh 😂 I’ve adapted .. if I don’t use humour to subdue the pain and anger it goes outward to others or inward on me …

music 🎵 helps, but at the mo the intensity of the situation overwhelms and I need more for a release , my body can’t do the physical it’s killing me ..

Who gives these people the power? Where’s their humanity when they speak to you ? Do they not understand in our eyes you allow this u support his actions , my view of you isn’t much higher than my view of him …

well till court it’s kit kat time .. ( have a break lol 😂) .. after that the fight continues .. I promised not doing this again this is the last time ..

so keep looking over that shoulder I’ll find a way you know it, I’m good at surviving I’ve had lots of practice ..

Been on phone to a young girl I met because she was attacked outside my house a few months ago ..

She’s in family court today .. he had witnesses to her attack me included and the police tried to arrest her a few days later , she rang me, I sorted that at the time she’d had a baby 3 weeks previously..

Well the police have without seeing witnesses made her the aggressor in the case the man had another woman and they had kicked her to the floor he’d sat on her, the woman he had with her was beating what ended up being the girl on the floors mum..

my kid had come in to get me screaming he’s hurting her mummy .. out I went disabled or not adrenaline kicks in ..

he got off her she and mum got safe… he wanted us to stand with him .. not from what my kids said and what I’ve seen .mate.. why you here then he growled my reply .. TO ENSURE YOU DONT DO THST AGAIN .. by then neighbours we out .

Well she’s askedring for help and good god she will get it.. I will show her how to complain

IF YOU KNOW ANYONE STRUGGLING PLEASE SEND THEM YO ME.. I honestly believe I can do a better job than the services out there a helping somof these women .. they need protection, help coping whilst suffering.:.

I’m furious .. this is a young mother she should feel safe ..

Morning, well I’m sat in silence, done my stretches to get my body moving but can’t do that with my mind..

it’s July tomorrow the court countdown begins .. as of yet no call to say papers are served.. Also it’s my child’s birthday How do you carry on eh? This is what they do t see , how do you create a party atmosphere ? Cos you have too ..

I’m doing my best but I know until I get heard, this will blanket my life.

The police are a joke in my case.. they failed to act on evidence in 2012 every service did .. probation social services police all the gps doctors they didn’t just fail me and my kids but his now wife who was my child’s friend and integrated in my family..

now they say it’s too historic.. I’ve been telling you and reporting since 2012 it’s not historic for goodness sake he’s contacted again .. ITS ONGOING AND CONTINUOUS!!!!

Well I’ve got a focus and next week I’ll be going above Birmingham police at Lloyd House .. This is not going away I’m not going away because HE THE RAPIST KEEPS COMING AND IS LIVING ROUND THE BLOODY CORNER..

he’s waited 7 years to have a child his wife made to wait that 7 years , tell me that’s not calculated/ controlling, as he knows the involvement from social services would be intense due to the ten known child sex offenders within his family ..

But no .. the law says he can do all of this on orders and licence , get away with it and contact me when ever he chooses..

I can’t wait for court in some ways … depending what happens I have an idea of what I’m going to do ..

If they won’t protect me I’ll protect myself.. Be ready cos it’s not going to be a usual scenario at all ..

They have no idea what we are left living , no actually they do!!! They know the police , the fear, intimidation anger, upset and distress it’s causing but THEY DONT CARE..

Well I’m not reporting to you any more your calls leave me bereft and broken..

I’ve promised myself this year the 13th continual year of his abuse to me will be the end..

How can the police leave a person so unprotected? How can they tell you to compile the evidence then tell you because they didn’t act it’s too late .. no this is here again because of his contact … I’m not chasing him sending him messages .. he’s found me ..

I know there’s more to this and I will keep digging away until the answers are solved and reasonings arelooked onto as to how all this has happened..

He contacts and he’s given a choice whether to attend court or not.. there’s a simple problem HE SHOULD BE FORCED TOBE THERE LIE I AM .. it’s wrong from the offset he’s the bloody criminal..

Well on with the day thinking on the emails .

Went out last night … feel no better for it at all.. it changed nothing.

Couldn’t settle, things went, well, far from what was planned.. People’s actions all week and the police, the ex, the school, living it’s all whirring blended together..

Anger my issue, told my Imprisoned brother off for no control this week.. I cant get it out

Let people down, I hate to do that ,it was done to me all week..

Drunk ,,, no ,, Glad yes lol

My body hurts just from walking Broad street drunk on top of that would not be good.

I’m lost if I’m honest , emotionally battered and beaten. It’s worse emotionally with bruises at least you know it’s going to heal all that’s left is a memory .. This is like torture,

Coercion and control is 2015 up they can use previous for bad character, but won’t they know if they put it in front of a jury there’s reasonable doubt there’s evidence. SO WHY WONT THE POLICE HELP ME? BECAUSE 13 years of this isn’t enough … He has to physically do more to hurt my person..

So in the uk a man can beat you, Rape you and torment you for 13 years and the English laws allow it.

They put you in intensive therapy, equip you with the tools for life so this doesn’t happen to you again you do courses, core meetings, social services, police, courts, lawyers women’s Aid anawim to repair and then the uk law allows him your abuser to mentally and emotionally torture you .. live five minutes from you, let’s him on order connect with your child’s friend from school.

There are ten known child sex offenders in his , my abusers family ( told by the services) and he has waited 7 years to have a child ,so his licence from prison is finished. This so there’s no social services involvement in his life. It’s while I’m early stages of that pregnancy he contacted me..

The court system after his contact to me again.. Gives my abuser the choice on whether or not he wants to attend the hearing. Do you see the problems???

What I must ask is why put so much in repairing us doctors therapists if it’s pointless.. what a waste of resources and money..

Stop lying to the survivors of these horrendous crimes and be honest tell us no matter how much you change as a person the law hasn’t and IN REALITY THE LAW PROTECTS THEM NOT US..

The worst of iris if I was a relative or daughter to anyone I’ve dealt with , you know he’d be in jail long ago.

So I now have to spend the day looking at my children one a young girl knowing in future if some horrid man hurts her .. I will not call the police, knowing the last call with that Detective Inspector was the last call I can’t do that again .. told it’s historic now.. ( screamed I did – it was reported then that’s your fault as services not mine ..

I’ve just proper had enough. There’s no point all I know is I need to think about court .. is it worth my

Well I’m furious and full of rage 🤬

I dare not comment at the moment it would need an x rating ..

what I can say is the chain is off, my beast is out, protection imminent, the only control is the last court date..

You got want you want now you fuxking bastxxd, remember ME 😉.. you knew all along didn’t you .. still I’m so gullible 😠 but yes you have my attention , but not like you wanted.

Ok now I know too let’s get this shit over with..

Told the police check your records, not proud or purposeful but he and I created a nightmare for them, I’m not the type to back down when being beaten. I’m not doing this any more..

won’t get the evidence they failed to act on .. arrrggghh you protect the ABUSERS ITS SICK SICK SICK

We know how this will go .. so watch this space after court I’ll show you how the law leaves you protected from your rapist coercive rapist ex.. after putting you through a degrading court system that leaves you feeling as violated as the day he raped you ..

YOU HAVE NOT GOT A FUCKING CLUE !! Law lol , justice no such thing people , evidence and orders just a tactic to disillusion you ..

It’s complete bullshit

Sorry but I can’t do this pathetic crap any bloody more ..

no more calls , no more emails , no more diversions ,

It’s time to feed the horse an apple 🍎

Well after the education and skills funding agency upheld my complaint against the school I finally got a rehearing today with a new of independent panel members..

Independent well if you say so each member is part of the trust which runs the school lol the minute taker is clerk to the board of trustees .. the only independent in my opinion was the local councillor who kindly on my request agreed and has given their time again to sort of mediate in this mess..

so it went on I had hoped we’d be in and out but no.. all I was to address was silent transitions all I wanted to do was ask after the freedom of info school had to release how can they stand by the decision to silence our children and stop them growing naturally .. I lost my composure, nearly cost the meeting .. I’m loaded down so much at the mo stalker rapist ex , child bride , police courts, I hate lies and misleading conversations and that is when it goes , I growl , the emotion escapes. The trauma is apparent to all normals in the room .. lol I can’t help how strongly I feel and as I don’t work due to my health n mental state I’m not as trained in these situations as the others my father ,the councillor and board members practice this sh*t daily ..

I’m proud of me I did a better job at control than before lol 😂 much better

Tangents came and went and in hindsight was used a lot it doesn’t answer what the complaint asks .. the school hadn’t even given the board the info from the freedom of info request I made.. ( good job I took my own)

Well this is the end of the line on this bit.. I knew it was never about a win ,we discussed that as parents from the start.

WIN A BATTLE AGAINST GOVERNMENT – not likely lol

It’s about appropriate-behaviour, treating members of the school community with respect( not falsely having them accused of violence because they have complained against your decisions) , fulfilling my care of the children I love in that school, caring about the effect this could have on the local community in the sense of mental issues and happy rounded young adults. There’s so many things.

This is from October last year still ongoing, I know the outcome letter will be polite and in hindsight it’s been learnt , it’s regrettable that… it’s pure rubbish on the way lol but this is the step before misconducts are filed just one last lot of complaints to get through and it will all go together ..

I shall be glad its over in this sense but there’s so much more to do anti academies and all the efforts across the uk 🇬🇧 have opened my eyes 👀 I was so blinded and unaware. My support will be able to be focused and to be honest I can’t wait my energy is wasted in this paperwork with the school and the lack of communication..

I can talk tia rock all day – it’s never gonna talk back is it 😏.

Well that I’m mind I’m off to do sewing 🧵. Kills my hands and hard to thread the needle these days but it helps .. I’m making a bag from three items and thread

Well I’m supposed to have put evidence from may till now in order, scanned it and sent it off to the police.. it’s nearly in order.

I’m having issues though…

I have this week a meeting with the school I removed my son from due to silent corridors policy they placed on the children with no consultation or proper planning.. like my case with my ex fighting government and their policies is not an easy task and my first complaint fromDecember is being reheard due to the school failings.. I must help the remaining children and parents at the school they can’t be treated in any way like I have.

Im over loaded with paperwork ..

The intensity of my world is testing everything in it friendships ( some have never seen me this way) relationships the only thing not bothered or touched is my children .. I’m lucky to have an in built something that bubbles them from Jenny.. The issue is SHES welcomed,

Maybe I push people away as I’m not proud when I’m in this place, it means if she’s here I’m not coping emotionally or mentally with my situations.. she protects my inner child and innocence, my sanity, my humility.

What happens when her borders are found, the orders end, it’s as much for his protection as mine!

Well on I must go.

Today preparing for the school meeting.. if only parents knew what academisation means for their children. How these schools now acting as businesses can act with impunity and no fear of being held accountable for their actions. They can make rules withno checks like sitting children in silence all day with no reasoning as to why no research.

Communication is key to life you cannot mould people from young to adhere ..they will get their own mind eventually then you will have a very angry generation rebelling in many ways. Full of issues and problems..

These are humans our children our families, not worker bees 🐝

When will the uk laws start protecting the more I see the sadder it makes me.